Here's what I mean by "heartoholic." It's working extra hard to make your heart worry and suffer all the negativities in your mind. I've been there before. I worked so hard trying to scare myself about my heart palpitations and how it might end up with me. It made my heart suffer more. And then it dawned on me--I was a heartoholic.
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Here's Wikipedia's take on a workaholic: "A workaholic is a person who works compulsively. A workaholic experiences an inability to limit the amount of time they spend on work despite negative consequences such as damage to their relationships or health." The same with a heartoholic. You're compulsively worrying about what can happen to you and how you might end up. You have that urge, that drive, which you cannot control. It just happens each day, most of the day. And you keep doing this despite what it does to you and your relationships.
A heartoholic is overly concerned about his or her heart. Period.
And believe me, I know exactly the feeling. I've been there. And when the attacks come--whether actual palpitations or the anxiety resulting from the trauma--you feel terribly all alone, even if you're amid the presence of your family or friends and their love, care and assurances. I remember wishing I could just live in the ER or at least get booked a long time in a hospital room so medical help can easily be within reach in case of emergencies. But later, I realized even that wouldn't help.
Heart palpitation is a real annoyance and seems like a curse. Life loses all its meaning, especially when you see how it dictates your life--what you can and cannot do. And that's what got me really angry, the idea that heart palpitations had control of my life. I had to fight back and wrest destiny back into my hands. So I decided to regain authority and command--to rule and reign. And I found that this was only possible with Jesus Christ. He had to rule my life first before I could use the power I have in HIM.
When I successfully kicked out palpitations from me through God's healing power (it can happen to you, too), I decided to start this blog and the FB group page "Beat Heart Palpitations" with an FB page titled, "Relaxed Palpitations." I share all my experiences there and how I coped with abnormal heart beats when I still had them. It's so important to be able to cope while the palps annoy you and regain control of yourself even when palps are going on.
Most importantly, I share how I was able to get rid of heart palpitations completely. The experiences I had and strategies I did may also be helpful to you. Who knows? And secondly, I know how comforting and reassuring it is to hear someone talking about a cure, someone who went through all the agonies and madness like you did. In my time, there was no one who was like that to me.
Even medical heart specialists, although they tried their best, failed to understand what I was really feeling and what was really going on. They depended on tests, and that's good. But they didn't have the firsthand experience of what it was really like. You cannot give what you do not have. Good if you have a heart doctor who actually went through all the motions, hardships, helplessness, hopelessness and other adverse experiences of the illness. That's rare.
Here are some things I can share that helped me cope:
- I prayed and had faith.
- I believed I will be healed, although all things seemed to suggest otherwise.
- I lived a healthy lifestyle as best I could.
- I had a lot of negativity in me but I fought them all.
- I replaced negative thoughts with promises in the bible.
- I searched out articles and videos about heart palpitations, especially those that talked about a cure.
- I ignored everything negative about the subject.
- I tried to get out of the heart palpitation box little by little.
- I despised that box. I didn't settle for it.
- I know and declared God's will for me was to be healed completely.
So, this blog is dedicated to all the heartoholics out there, that they may soon find a permanent relief and healing and stop being a heartoholic. It happened to me, it's most likely to happen to you, too. You just have to believe it against all odds. It's the mindset that counts.
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